March 30, wee hours

on Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Serious Warning.

 

I just spoke with my boyfriend and usual stuff we spoken about. However, my guy, just lead to a topic that made me thought so hard. It just hit him, that thought of me cheating again. I know I so lack QT with him, even with my family. I go home late from work and I’m making our house just a “sleeping and washing quarter” – which is not good. Perhaps this whole idea of everyday OT leads him to think that I am not doing well in this relationship. Must admit that I had mistakes before and that may have injured his heart and made some holes in it, those we are trying to heal up to this time.

 

I am the type that can stand the whole day not talking to him, maybe that’s one of the grounds he’s looking at, “bakit ko kaya?” I am asking the same question too, surprisingly.

 

I love my boyfriend and I know that I would deeply hurt if and when that thing – break up – happened again. We have been in that scene before – I was caught red handed and him, busted. Of course it was an all-tears moment, we broke up but it did not even last for a week! It’s just like a day or two of no talk but the time we saw each other, we just melt.

 

We never,seldom fight. Our fights would be because inaatake ako ng kaartehan sabi nga nia. Like choice of people to go with, I rarely go with him whenever they have a barkada gathering. I always find reason so I will not be able to go --- he knows that I am faking it, he just do not get the point why I need to do that. I don’t get myself too. Haha! Revealing true reason… I am losing my self confidence – especially now that I am like this – fat. I know it shouldn’t be the basis for everything but I feel so ashamed for him if we are going out. I look older than of my age, am 25 but I look 40 – well that’s OA. Hah! Although I can say I have achieved so much still I do not have the feet to stand tall.

 

He mentioned that I am superficial. I also intend to look at other persons fault and put a comment on it. Could that be a reason why I am feeling jittery all the time am with his pals?

 

I went out with a colleague last night and since we had couple of drinks, I begun to share things. I just realized that my biggest fear pala is rejection. I found out at last!

 

I fear that my bf’s friends will find me unpleasant because of my physical appearance of something. Especially recently I found out that one of his batchmates, like love him so much, since their junior years! I knew that when I opened his YM and pretended that I am him. That girl… she really went gaga and confessed her love to my dear hunny. I thought it was fun at first, since I was playing around but later on I find that she’s beginning to like the way I talk (thinking again that I am Nelson) then she started blurting out things like “I love you” and “may chance ba tayo”… scary to death~ ew.

 

Anyway, bottomline naman she realized that she just got carried away and will not do a single “bad” thing (subukan nia lang) to hurt our loveful relationship.

 

Okay, maybe I am too scared to face my dilemma and much worse, I am doing NOTHING to make things better.

 

It’s not good I know.

 

I may need your help but the change should start with me.

 

Pressing START button – NOW

March 29. Quarter before Midnight

So weird!

 

I used to have a line under Globe, which I gave up few months ago. I just do not understand that Globe does that transferring of phone number to another user. I am not so pleased about it. I just found out that my old number has a new user, and weirdest thing on earth, we share the same name. Hate it! That number was like posted to all my friends and business-pals and sudden changes that I had to give up that line… not knowing it will or can be transferred to another person. Anyway, I feel so ashamed, because I have “dirty little secrets” using that number, and am so super scared that she might explore any of it.  Perhaps she already “Googled” me or something – paranoid! I know Globe sent me letters that I usually ignored before… but I didn’t know that it will end up just like this.

 

Lesson learned, always have a clean slate cause may not know when these crazy things will occur…

 

So calling all my friends and business-pals…. I no longer own my old number 0917-5006489 or 0917500MITZ as it was already transferred to girl named Mitzi R. Salvador of somewhere there. So please if you want to get in touch with me thru mobile, you may reply by sending me message together with your number so I can revert back my new Globe and Sun numbers. Thank you!

 

March 25, 2009

Birthday Greetings: Charles “Nicky” Bustamante and Mark Jason Chua

 

Another ordinary day for me, well except for another yummy lunch we had at, once again, Koreano – one that is located in Makati Avenue. Of course, never we went there without ordering Sam Gyup Sal, Korean Beef Stew, Dak Gui and their “expensive” thick rice. (Php 50.00 per rice is something hah). Although this time, we brought in another new cast – Ms. Ana Queppet, joined us. She’s one of Zenith Opti clients, but above all, a family friend, how small the world we live in right? Anyway, what’s new here is we ordered shrimp and this Korean fried egg (mukhang tortang itlog lang na mahal ulit, hehe). We all loved that lunch, and of course, it will not be perfectly complete without the super sweet Orange cuts that they serve after every meal. I’m beginning to love oranges, I dunno, I just love it.

 

Gone back at the office at around 2pm. Oh dear, not again, that “sleepy” feeling is again attacking. This usually happens right after a yummy lunch.

 

It’s media day today. I normally go out when they called out, but this time I need to hide as I got so many stuff lined up to finish. I sometimes go gaga whenever I go out to pee and be cornered by friends from networks. Of course I cannot just ignore and take them for granted, so what I do… I’ll do my thing and prepare myself for an hour of business-chika, with different people. They are nice actually although there are those who are new to my eyes but hey, I cannot blame them as they are just doing their jobs. You know what, sometimes I pity those oldie AEs that go at the office and ask for business, I want so much to give them one but times like this, it’s really hard to push for something that isn’t just right or media values bought because of pity. Well, I just pray that God give them media persons that will need their “products”.

 

Another topic. I just found a new sister who likes shoes! One of our media reps, who became close to me na rin is also a shoe addict. I showed her my new baby, tri-color heeled shoes, and she liked it. Best buy she told! I am happy cause I snag a cool and worthy pumps, which by the way I call – AE Shoes haha! Why? Because I always AEs wear that, beats all media people who are comfy wearing their trusted jeans and suppliers shirt/jackets… hehehe. Going back, I have plans naman of buying Converse one of these days, but I ain’t sure yet what design shall I choose, or if I will settle for Chucks or Pony. I kinda like the two. Hmm.. Help? I am also wondering if I need to wear AE dress too, but I am afraid that I’m throwing some money na because of this unplanned buys.

 

It’s happening; Unni (sister in Korean language) is transferring to our group. Happy because we will be free to do work without her being “nasisita” by her immediate boss – that usually happens that’s why some work are done at night to get away from confrontation. I also mentioned the used to be possible Cebu trip, which is IMPOSSIBLE now. Huhu! I wanted pa naman to go out this weekend as I am not used to be just in the house doing nothing (well apart from snoozing – most loved hobby).

 

Raining hard outside now. I am wondering if my boypz was able to go home safe and dry, at least. He’s not the type that brings umbrella so I expect that he’s again, drenched – just take him away from sickness Lord.

 

Day ended well and I just can’t wait to reach Friday! J

 

 

 

 

Weird things I wanna try at least once!

on Friday, March 20, 2009

Take a break from your usual stuff, pause and think of those weird things that you wanna do while young or while alive at least. I got tons of those. Some I already did try and others are still running in my mind if I should give a shot or not. So, while waiting for my friends to come over, I ponder, what are the weird things that I wanna, "kahit one time lang"....

 

I'll start the list:

 

1) Matulog sa underpass ng Quiapo...- I just want to feel what it's like to be one of them. I pity but not to the point I give them money. I just feel sad to those people who look capable but chose to live a life like that. Perhaps they have reason why and that reason is something I'd like to understand.

 

2) Maging "Barker" ng Jeep - Nothing, I just want to try and exercise my "public speaking" hahaha! I want to take control of the whole scenario (oh galaw-galaw, sa kanan miss,... usog sa kaliwa "with matching" dalawang hampas sa gilid ng jeep).

 

3) Sumali sa Takeshi Castle - I just want to hurt myself and have some (or lots) of laughs!

 

4) Ma-confine, madextrose, and bed rest (nang di naman malala ang sakit) - i just want my friends to drop by and be with me and those who are really close to me to be extra sweet while I am sick. Hehehe!

 

5) Go Invisible - So I can steal a moment at Celine’s.. oh no… Kris Aquino’s wardrobe (so I can try her stuff, especially those expensive ones hahahah! para kasya like shoes and clothes unlike Celine’s hehe!)

 

6) Learn David Blaine’s magic and do it to people around Baclaran. – Para “A”, no need to speak in English unlike DB, and “B”, wala lang, galing na ko sa Quiapo sa item no. 1 eh. Hehe!


...Itutuloy....

D-Day! BCC Kool Blue Party

on Sunday, March 15, 2009

March 14, 2009. Saturday.

Woke up early, around 8am. Liked the cool breeze of Baguio.

Others are already up, preparing breakfast for the group. We had egg (my ultimate favorite), Spanish sardines, which I surprisingly liked, yummy pancakes and usual coffee, Nescafe. Finished preparing at around 11am, me and unni went straight to Baguio Country Club to meet Sir Vic and ask for the prod pass for the car. Afterwhich we had to go to Klite to pick up the remaining prod passes, which we again delivered to the EDI team in Baguio. The EDI boys are complete (well almost) this time. I got to feel the set up, which was nicely done, for me. Although the boys asked if we can still stay and chat a little but our hungry tummies are asking us to split and grab a lunch! Takaw.

It’s 430pm, Agnes, Cyp and Jon, decided to go out to buy something to eat for dinner – Sinigang got the most votes! We were like a family (or more like a PBB…. Celebrity participants) eating together. At the strike of 6pm, everyone’s tensed as we need to be in the venue a little early than the exact event time. We arrived at 7pm and then there were the EDI boys and client. Familiar faces. Party feel. I just can’t wait to start the party.

I was a little agitated in the first hour of the event. The venue isn’t filled up as we are expecting. There are those who came but don’t want to stay inside the ballroom. The cold breeze adds to the jitters I am feeling. At 10pm, there people start to invade the room. I am a party person; I love dancing and just enough drinking. Client saw our “kulit” so he told us to just dance in the ledge to invite other people to dance too! A little embarrassed though, but hey remember the saying, dance like no one’s watching (they don’t know me anyway, so why bother).

 

 

Great that the party just went smoothly as planned. Baguio bagets, they rock, they really know how to party hard!

Nevada, we also visited. We reached the place around 130am with aching stomach because of “starvation”. 


Hahah! I grabbed an inihaw na liempo, which took like years before it got cooked. Again, I had egg in it. Love it. After the eating, we head straight to Acid, one more drink and we are solved.

330am. Home (slash hotel). Tired, yes. Inspired, a little. Disappointed quite. Expecting, so-so. Happy, yeah!

Friday the 13th, March 2009

Thank God it’s payday weekend this time. I know I do not have that huge tax return but I am pretty sure that I have enough cash to let me live for another two weeks. Well, I still got some here, which I intend to use for a new phone. Although it’s 13th of Friday, I am not that afraid to go around and find something interesting. While everyone’s busy doing all those work thingy that needs to be finished by end COB, me I got the chance to split in the office quite early than usual to attend a somewhat meeting with client slash activity (vaccination) for one of the most known non-profit organizations here in the country. Since it’s a vaccination activity, it involves…none other than…needles! I like needles, weird but I do like it when I am getting those blood tests. Told my client about that liking and she asked why not I get a tattoo since it involves a lot of needle nipping, I sorta like the idea but nahh, I don’t see myself sacrificing my skin for that stuff…well not I got an offer from those handsome Miami Ink boys. (Flirting…hahah!)

 

 

Going back, I just have these little voices pushing and telling me to go spend…I badly need a new phone, I need to buy a new office bag as my current nice red and purple is already torn. I like to have a pair of chucks. I have to start looking for an orthodontist who will do my braces; my pearly whites are starting to give me troubles these past few months. Oh my, these are only half from the list that I want to accomplish. I can clearly imagine how much money I will again burn just to quench my thirst to spend. I went straight to Greenhills after our shoot, my plan, beat that cellphone drama! Once there, I went straight to that mobile mecca and started to look for Mimay, pretty storeowner who sells nothing but the best mobile. (Nice Mimay, free advertisement for you hahaha!) Looks like “Bro” is guiding me and wanted me to buy that mobile, Mimay has transferred to a new unit but luckily I still able to find her, talking about destiny right?! I asked her if she can still fix my other mobile, which got broken because it thousand times fell off my hand. Not so good news, it was totally ruined, in short, it’s just a trash! Thought my mobile dream will just fade away, but not! I spotted this P900i, yeah I know it is last seasons but hey, that was the exact phone I am dying to have (last year, yeah). It’s good bargain, almost new and the price, so cheap (cheaper than what I really wanted now, E63 red or white). I tested it and Mimay just told that it’s actually new and it already has buyers in line although none has paid for DP or to buy the phone. Cut story short, I got it for some thousands. Not bad price for a very stylish and useful mobile.

 

Talking about shopaholic, everytime I pass through the stuff I wanted, shoes, bags and kikay thingies, I keep asking myself, do I need these? Well, sad to say…YES! I need these!... I was actually looking for comfy flip-flops because my feet is killing me, those high heels I wore were not friendly you know, when I saw this gray velvety boots, super nice. I wore and I feel sudden change with my self confidence. Hahaha! Defensive. It’s really sweet actually. I so love it that I didn’t have any choice but to buy it. Besides, I can still wear it at the office. Enough with those cheapie shoes that gave me terrible blisters! I also got new flip-flop…and it’s PINK! I also got some accessories that I think best worn with the booths. I love this day!! It’s like I rewarded myself for those sleepless nights because of work. By the way, by this late evening, my gang will go off to the mountains again to monitor the event. Although we made to Baguio a little late than expected, blame that EDSA traffic, still I am glad we have settled there safe and sound.

 

I really wish this day will never end…

 

Cyprus, Thank You Friend

on Tuesday, March 10, 2009


Thank you my dear friend for helping me fix and beautify my blog! I owe you big time :-) !!!!


I used to have a very nice and neat space but due to my ka-artehan to have a NICER, MORE EXCITING AND COOLER blogspot template.... i ruin my existing. :) Good thing there's a person named Cyprus who super helped me. Love yah friend. What will I do without you? 

Okay, here is a plaque (pwedeng ung parang award...pwede din ung TARTAR hehe) for you, for being a good and very helpful friend.... given this day 10th of March, 2009. 

One BIG KISS for you! MUAHHHHH!




Help!

on Monday, March 9, 2009

I would need some peace. :)